DecWriMo Day 16 (12/17/19) | i promise i'm still here

HELLO EVERYONE. It’s just me, your friendly neighborhood Katti dragging herself through December and attempting to write while doing a million other things (lol).

I haven’t been able to write for close to a week which HURTS ME, but so is life. We’ve had a lot to do (and celebrate!) over the past few days – Lucas’ straight A semester being the main cause for celebration! He’s worked so. flipping. hard. the last six months and deserves every ounce of happiness and congratulations in the world. I’ve been so lucky to be able to spend time with him in this short break he has.

Between spending time with Lucas (and Ledger, who honestly is a different pup now that BOTH his parents are home almost all the time) and prepping for Christmas, I really haven’t been able to sit down long enough to write. While I usually write on my work lunch breaks, in the last week I’ve either used that time for something else or let myself chill, because honestly my brain needed it.

After the slug of writing I did a week ago, I also needed to give the story time to air out because it’s kind of (really) gross. I’m not happy with the pace – for some reason, I’m having a heck of a time trying to keep the action at a consistent speed. I’ve struggled with that from the beginning of writing this book, too! Either the characters are careening through 12 crazy situations or sitting on a rooftop staring out at nothing and that’s not how I want the story to go.

Tonight I was able to tinker with the current chapter (chapter 3) a little bit. I need to add some scenes in and make some time elapse so the next chapter, which is from Dyanna’s perspective, fits into the story better. There needs to be more characterization and world-building and I CAN DO THIS IF I TRY.

I’m hoping I can get back to actual writing soon, but I’ve been pondering how to fit these chapter puzzle pieces together in all my free time. I also organized my Spotify playlists a little more so I have easy access to listening to my most scene-inspiring songs. YAY for being semi productive!

Since it’s nearly midnight I want to sign off and get some sleep so ~maybe~ I can write tomorrow. Wishing all y’all lots of inspiration and happiness!

DecWriMo Day 10 (12/11/19) | Meh.

Maybe it’s the rain sounds I’ve been listening to for an hour or maybe it’s 11 p.m. and I can’t stay up late anymore but I am TIRED. Brain no writey words tonight.

I attempted a bit of writing and got an introductory paragraph started for the new scene I’m on but realized writing is just not going to happen tonight. Do you know what tired writing looks like the morning after??? It’s the literary equivalent of drunk-buying hundreds of live ladybugs on amazon and then stewing in reflection the next day looking at your order history like… “Why did I do this?”

So let’s hope I stay lucid enough to make it through this blog post. Also, I literally just realized how easy it is to put gifs in a blog post and I refuse to go back to all texts posts. What am I, a Millennial SAVAGE?!

Anywhoozles, while my blogging hasn’t been the *most* consistent, I can honestly attest to thinking about Bridie’s story every day. It’s one of the first things I think about in the morning and one of the last things I think about before sleep (junk food and my husband being the more important topics on my mind). In the past 10 days I’ve been able to figure out an entire blood-based economy, the dynamic of some of the relationships, and I even started chipping away at some plot for the sequel. #progress

Y’all are awesome for sticking through the blog post with me because I know it had literally 0 path or point. I don’t know why I’m so tired, but I’m going to continue cuddling my puppy, turn on Disney+ and sleep for a good 8 hours in hopes my brain comes back to writing capabilities tomorrow.

Thanks for reading! Y’all have a wonderful night!

Introducing DecWriMo

We’ve all heard of NaNoWriMo, but have you heard of DecWriMo? No? I hope not because I checked Instagram and it doesn’t exist yet (surprising, I know).

I’m going to brag for a hot second before I explain what the heck I’m talking about and tell y’all that last year, I absolutely crushed NaNo. I finished not one, but TWO books. You read that right. Two whole manuscripts.

“Wait, wait, wait!” You’re probably saying. “How did you write two whole books in 30 days?”

Honestly, I did it with a lot of support from my husband and a lot of TERRIBLE. WRITING. So bad. Like… so, so bad.

You see, I was only focused on hitting my word count goals. I wasn’t focused on developing the stories I was working on, which is why for the next 8+ months, I revised the heck out of the first book and began querying it and now I’m revising book number two. And the biggest thing I learned from last year’s NaNo?

Don’t push yourself too hard.

Honestly, I’m upset with my last-November self. Writing is a continual-growth process and I’m not upset that I didn’t write good words (hello, every first draft ever); I’m upset that I didn’t take the time to care for the stories I started to write. I’m upset that I focused more on quantity than quality of writing and while that may work for some people, I just don’t think it works for me. Through Twitter and Instagram, I’ve seen that it kind of doesn’t work for a lot of others too. That’s why I came up with DecNoWriMo.

So, what is DecWriMo?

I’m glad you asked! DecWriMo is an idea to let go of word counts and chapter goals and pressure and instead, focus on an accountability to myself to take time for my stories. It stands for December Writing Month, but really, this could be a year-round thing. An every month thing. A whenever/wherever thing. Because DecWriMo isn’t a season, it’s a state of mind. It’s training your brain to think more about stories as a whole, not about getting to the last page. My husband actually planted this idea in my head by giving me some of the best writing advice I’ve ever received:

“Things need time to become great.”

the best husband in the entire world during a NaNo2018 breakdown

Why was I rushing stories out of my brain and onto a Word doc if they weren’t ripe enough to be told? If I wasn’t ready to write them?
~the world will never know~

This December, I’m trying to think about my stories every day. A few months ago, I’d hoped that I’d be ready to query 2018 NaNo’s book two (The Last McNary, if you’re interested) by January 2020, but that’s not going to happen. It’s gone through five drafts and only now am I happy with the way the story is progressing. So instead of rushing through November and December to try to get it done, I’m taking my time. I’m listening to music. I’m letting my brain ponder all the paths the story can take; all the motivations and tragic pasts of the characters; all the twists, turns, and surprise endings I can come up with and writing them down.

No word count goal. No rushing.

As I tend to get lazy after the first few days of being accountable only to myself, I’ll be posting each day for the month of December (give or take a few around Christmas time and obviously, as it’s December 2, not every day) about what I focused on that day for my story. I might have written, I might have found some cool pictures on Pinterest that inspired me, I might have found a new song I added to a character playlist, or maybe I was in the grocery store and heard something that sparked my creativity.

Who knows, y’all, but that’s the beauty of it!

If you’re interested in participating in DecWriMo with me, let me know! Tweet at me, tag me on Insta, or leave a comment below on what you want to think about this December. I’d love to hear what you’re focusing on and if there’s any way I could help!